do i have to
remember the wheres and
how of every meeting –
the which lifetime
of every word
that’s been spoke
between us.
beyond the shadows
morning light still spills
touching equally both
your face and mine.
birds still gather
joyous on cool branches
weaving the day with song.
this unravelling of us
was always inevitable.
much as the ball of yarn
unravels
to make the cloth.
there is no waiting
for the sky to wrench open,
to see the black nothing of space
and the promised land beyond.
there is no reaching
between trees where
lichen grows light – no sideward slip
into a world epiphanic.
you are needed here now,
both feet fresh from dream –
walking firm soft on the earth.
there is no touching
this long held breath,
our world waits
for the wind
to speak you.
we wake before the day now,
switch on lights to rouse the sleepers
drink tea while the sky forms above the hill
and darkness becomes forest and home.
outside the air,
damp-cool as frogskin,
is shaking with song,
in trees and hedges
small birds grow fat
on autumn”s bounty.
the goats, pungent
for rutting season,
sleep in – heads lolling
in woolly piles of breath –
listening for the quiet of new life
to be carried through the coming cold.
driving to meet the bus,
road sides strung with dew
and trapdoor webs,
stray egrets catch my breath –
sky shadows turned bird
bright in morning light.
today i season the hearth
dry the clay with kindling
until the flame burns
warm and steady.
this is the consolation
of the darkening days
and the turning
and the turning
of the seasons.
if i walked my DNA
back like a path
worn and traveled,
gathering the dust
of here
on my feet –
crossing oceans and high seas,
the long flat warmth of the equator
and further still.
green valleys where
rivers slow and quiet,
gentle their way to the sea –
across mountains touched with snow
to places that live nowhere anymore
but in the twisting spiral code
floating in the cytoplasmic soup
of every cell.
if we walk back and back
through the ice and fur
and long dark nights
of perpetual winter,
further back still to forests
and lagoons older
than our understanding of time –
does it matter, in the end,
whether we were made of stars or mud?
matter any more than it matters
that we are made of these places
we have walked –
we made these paths as they made us.
we have eaten and been eaten.
our bones are buried and burned –
turned to soil and tree
only to be born again
as human
as ant
as bat –
and any being that ate the fruit
of the tree that grew from the soil
that was us
for a while.
beyond the hills
the sea is calling.
grey under waves of cloud that
pulled like tides across the sky,
pushed soft across the land,
drenched soil and skin
until the leaves shone clear
and the birds resumed their singing.
it is clear light this morning
that paints deep shade,
earth barred and lined
with the shadows of trees.
hills and fields patterned
like the hide of a beast
sleeping soft and steady
spilled with sun.
beneath the thinning of the sky,
beneath the stars that
have receded one by one
yielding their light to day,
beneath the swim lines
of swallow and ibis and goose,
the mist has come –
drifting across the field,
hovering light over the dam
where heron stirs the seasons
one careful footfall
at a time.
